Just when you think you can sit back and try to
enjoy the peacefulness you desperately sought after, the world overwhelms you
with its conflicts, hatred and despair of normal life...
And General Insanity creeps in
Every day....
--> Saying Goodbye to All Things Childish... <--
I'm going to be moving house soon and I was instructed by my parents to pack up my hurricane-hit room into boxes. Of course, needless to say, it isn't really going as fast as I would like. Plus, it's a rather painful and slow process, trying to cram 22 years of my life into 10 cardboard boxes. I still harbour the childish notion of permanence. I thought and hoped that my home would be my home till I married out and was ready to move away. That my children would play in it under the watchful eye of my parents. That one of us would inherit it. It's hard to believe that this warm place, bursting with memories will one day be no longer standing...
I had to slowly go through my things to decide which things to bring and which to leave behind or chuck out. Of course, my new room won't be big enough to contain all my stuff. I came across all these trinkets I've been collecting since I was 2: my bean-stuffed kitten (too precious to throw!!), my Pound Puppies my mum 'adopted' for me, letters that my friends wrote, old school magazines, photographs, cute pencils and erasers, university lecture notes..
Then, I came across a pile of posters and magazines that I put off throwing because I must have spent hundreds on them! I leafed through them and laughed, amused at how besotted I was over Take That, Mel Gibson... Tom Cruise (this crush died the day he and Katie Holmes hit the front page...), Gary Barlow.
It was tough but I finally made the decision to throw them out, and along with them, my 14 year old schoolgirl crushes and besotted obsession. It was time to let go the sentiments and move on with adult life. The season of youth has to progress..
Chloe Andrina
6:17 PM
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